As you know, I'm waiting to hear if Peanut is still available for international adoption. Most likely I'll find out this week. In the meantime, I'm handling the anxiety in increasingly ouchy ways.
- I started out the past week not sleeping -- when I am sleeping I'm having nightmares. Freaky, weird, how-the-hell-did-that-come-out-of-my-brain nightmares.
- By Wednesday I had progressed to headaches. The kind where my computer screen starts swimming and light to my eyes is the equivalent of cryptonite to Superman.
- At the end of the work day on Thursday I realized I had been chewing on my lip all day. Apparently my binge eating has gotten so out of control that I've gone cannibal on myself.
- All week long I've been dealing with a resurgance of my teen years. Let's just say that benzoyl peroxide has become my constant companion.
If anxiety has to have a physical manifestation, why can't it be smooth, glossy hair or great skin? If we have to deal with stress we should be appropriately compensated.
Couldn't agree with you more on the glossy hair and good skin thing!
I think that all of these months of patiently (mostly) waiting are all piled up on you right now, knowing that finally FINALLY you are going to get some word. Even if you try to keep your mind calm, your body will betray you.
Hang in there. I'm right here anxiously waiting with you and praying that this week will be the beginning of the end of the process to finally bring Peanut back to you.
So, I know where you're at. And I'm sending HUGE hugs and good vibes your way!
I think of you often and I am hoping you hear good things about Peanut. You've been so graceful through this wait. I would have been NUTS if I was you. But you've handled it like a pro.
You're getting closer and closer to the finish line!
Hang in there
Lauri
I will be checking in a lot this week.
Hoping for good news for you and Peanut.
We are praying for your strength over the next few days. Hopefully you will find out sooner than expected that he's there just waiting for you to come pick him up!
Hang in there! Do things to keep your mind busy!