Saturday, April 22, 2006
Labor Pains
As you know, I'm waiting to hear if Peanut is still available for international adoption. Most likely I'll find out this week. In the meantime, I'm handling the anxiety in increasingly ouchy ways.
  • I started out the past week not sleeping -- when I am sleeping I'm having nightmares. Freaky, weird, how-the-hell-did-that-come-out-of-my-brain nightmares.
  • By Wednesday I had progressed to headaches. The kind where my computer screen starts swimming and light to my eyes is the equivalent of cryptonite to Superman.
  • At the end of the work day on Thursday I realized I had been chewing on my lip all day. Apparently my binge eating has gotten so out of control that I've gone cannibal on myself.
  • All week long I've been dealing with a resurgance of my teen years. Let's just say that benzoyl peroxide has become my constant companion.
If anxiety has to have a physical manifestation, why can't it be smooth, glossy hair or great skin? If we have to deal with stress we should be appropriately compensated.
11 Comments:
Blogger M3 said...
Hang in there!!!! I totally feel for you. I have NEVER (not even when I was a teenager) had so many zits. And the funny thing is that I clicked on your post and then realized I was chewing the heck out of my hangnails as I read. Help!!! This adoption process is HARD on the body. Sending you really super good thoughts this week.

Blogger Yeah So said...
It's so not fair, right? During my last wait for pg test results I got a monster cold sore!! WTF?? I'm sorry the wait is so stressful, I am keeping my fingers crossed for you that you get the good news very soon.

Couldn't agree with you more on the glossy hair and good skin thing!

Blogger Her Grace said...
It's just like dieting. Why can't chocolate covered peanuts give us that smooth, svelte (and tan apparently) figure we all want? Why can't Big Macs be loaded with Omega-3s instead of trans fats?

I think that all of these months of patiently (mostly) waiting are all piled up on you right now, knowing that finally FINALLY you are going to get some word. Even if you try to keep your mind calm, your body will betray you.

Hang in there. I'm right here anxiously waiting with you and praying that this week will be the beginning of the end of the process to finally bring Peanut back to you.

Blogger bethee said...
The one thing that has kept me sane over the past 18 months of this adventure has been chanting, "One Day At A Time", every single stinking day. Eventually, I started to belive it. Right now when people ask me about Russia and if we've heard anything, I say no, but I'm taking things one day at a time and today, I haven't heard anything.

So, I know where you're at. And I'm sending HUGE hugs and good vibes your way!

Blogger Rhonda said...
No kidding! Stress should make us pretty.

I think of you often and I am hoping you hear good things about Peanut. You've been so graceful through this wait. I would have been NUTS if I was you. But you've handled it like a pro.

You're getting closer and closer to the finish line!

Blogger Lauri said...
Always thinking of you- stress sucks- take the time to do something really great for yourself

Hang in there

Lauri

Blogger Jennefer said...
I am anxious for your news too. I know- not as much as you are, but we all really want to see this thing through to its happy ending. I will be devastated to hear anything different.

Blogger A Room to Grow said...
I am beginning to think that my abdominal pains were just stress related. It's amazing how whacked out a body can get...

I will be checking in a lot this week.

Hoping for good news for you and Peanut.

Blogger Maggie said...
Just fyi - I'm not expecting to hear any news until Thursday at the earliest. I'm not sure if the MOE was working today (after Orthodox Easter) and I'm sure it will take a day or two to get an answer about Peanut. Red tape, red tape, red tape.

Blogger Kristin said...
I think the fact that you have not become a big ol' drinking machine shows great strength of character! Looking forward to the good news (which I KNOW it will be) at the end of the week!

Blogger 6blessings said...
I agree. Stress should bring about something nice. When I'm stressed I revert back to my teenage years and start getting pimples. Ugh!

We are praying for your strength over the next few days. Hopefully you will find out sooner than expected that he's there just waiting for you to come pick him up!

Hang in there! Do things to keep your mind busy!